βIf you had to leave your house at a momentβs noticeβ if, for example, your house was on fireβ what would you take? Now, Iβm going go out on a limb and assume you want all the living creatures in your house to survive and that youβre going to be taking them with you. But, what possessions do you value? What are the things in your life that are so important to you that you would spend the very spare moments that you have left to collect them?β
To be honest, I donβt think Iβd remember to take much out of the house. Iβd try to wear appropriate clothing and maybe grab my wallet; if Iβm lucky Iβd grab my laptop. It has my lifeβs work on it. Mostly.
There were the wandering years: the years when mind and body wandered, looking for a home. There were those years I wrote myself into existence. I wrote, βI write, therefore I exist.β I wrote myself into history. I have gathered, in my maternal grandfatherβs old army trunk that sits by the front door, notes from the wandering years.
I do not feel as if I have sufficiently captured the breadth or depth of bound paper in this photograph. The earliest writings start in elementary school; they cease shortly after the birth of my daughter. There is a binder containing most of my slides. There is my laptop. The binders containing thousands of film negatives are not pictured: I keep them in the room where Iris was sleeping. Like a fire, I had a short amount of time to gather everything and photograph. I did not risk the back bedroom. Also not pictured are my passport and the aforementioned wallet. I like to think Iβd have the wherewithal to grab them in case of fire. I think I would.
For many years you wrote yourself into existence.
Today you are nurturing your daughter into existence.
This is the beauty of the existence.