Ten of Sticks β€” Tarot of the Absurd

Tuesday, July 31st, 2012

Upright: hard work, great achievement, burden of responsibility, stress


The man in the image has harvested a crop that he has worked hard to grow. His goal has been achieved, but his responsibility has not lessened. The bounteous harvest is no easier to carry than the fields were to work. Lest he lose everything he has invested, he needs to move on to the next part of business and sell his ware. Unfortunately, there are not enough people to help him market the load. There is, perhaps, a more efficient way to accomplish his task than to do it all himself. Unfortunately, although he was quite inspired to create a boon of goods, he remains quite uninspired as to how to lighten his load. There are two main ways to go about it: (1) drop some (2) ask for help. Hopefully he does not turn full-face and make someone else do all the work.


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When I lived in Fairbanks, AK, I biked everywhere, year-round. When I went shopping, I carried groceries home on my back. One time, I bought a bunch of groceries, loaded my bike, and then decided to check out what was on sale at the craft store. They were selling mis-measured picture frames for five and ten bucks each. So I bought a bunch of very fancy frames. Quite a few, really. Some were very very large.


Thus, my backpack was over-loaded with groceries, I had about eight picture frames tied to the outside of the bag, and I had a dozen eggs strapped to the top of the bike rack. I started to bike home through the snow. Only ten miles to go! I could do it. I knew I could. There was no doubt in my mind that I could do it. I’d carried heavier. I’d biked through deeper snow. I could do it.


Of course, I didn’t have to. There was nothing to prove to anyone. Not even to myself. I called a cab. It felt real good, calling that cab.

Ten of Wands β€” The Fairytale Tarot

Saturday, January 7th, 2012

Written & Designed by Karen Mahoney
Illustrated by Alexandr Ukolov, Baba Studio
Artwork by Irena TΕ™Γ­skovΓ‘
[I don’t know what it means that the illustrations & the artwork are by two different people]


I asked, β€œWhat do I need in order to illustrate my kings?” and drew the ten of wands.


β€œKey words & phrases: taking on more than you can deal with; feeling burdened and crushed; letting work overwhelm you; too much action leads to exhaustion; allowing things to get out of hand.”


Also: β€œThe Ten of Wands is often about someone who feels overburned and overwhelmed by tasks that they themselves have taken on…” Feeling burnt out.


I never much liked the story of the Sorcerer’s Apprentice. I thought the boy should have known better and just gotten to work. I suppose the work seemed daunting. He thought, as we all do at times, there must be an easier way. Now it is I, searching through the old sorcerer’s books for some spell that I might cast to lighten my load.


I am, indeed, a bit burnt out on this project. It has been going on for so long that it ought to just be done by now. If I was a bit more consistent in my efforts, perhaps I’d be finished. But at the rate of about five cards a year, this sort of thing does drag out. It’s not as if I haven’t had the time. Today, (or yesterday, as it were,) for example, I did absolutely nothing whatsoever (unless surfing the net counts as something) until 6:30 p.m., whereupon I began to panic and finally started finishing a card I began two months ago! I didn’t even bring any wood. I’m going to wake up to a 50-degree house. What a sloth!


The truth is, I now have four more cards to illustrate before the end of March. As someone kindly pointed out, there is no way I am ever going to finish this if I wait until after I have a baby. This is what I need in order to illustrate my kings: I need to knuckle-down and draw. I need to fill the well myself. There is no magic answer for me. I have taken on a large project, it is true, but it gets no closer to being done while gathering virtual dust on my hard-drive.


I have always had trouble finishing things.


I am posting this first-thing in the wee hours because
my day is booked with things I did not do the day beforeβ€”
Β  unfortunately I still need to get to bed before I can wake up.